.06

If I hadn't already done it,
I never would have believed I could.
The clever calculations 

I discovered by accident
haunted my brain,
forcing me to give in 

to my darkest blackest side.

As a western breeze rolls in,
I throw open my windows
as wide as they will go
to maximize the ocean wind
wheezing into my apartment.

In two hours it will be cold outside
and the apartment
will be nicely chilled and
perhaps then
my profuse and
disgusting sweating
might finally cease.

It is with this hope
that I moved my life to the shore -
the cold from the Pacific
might allow me
to feel comfort
for once in my life.