.15 [index]

an index::
of memories::

—giraffeeyebrows:
—peanutbutterontoast:
—ascentedreddress:
—thosebutterflycurls:
—withlightgoldenstrands:
—somerubberalcohol:
—theexquisitesin:
—herfeminineenergy:

there's more::
but those i will keep::
for myself.

.14

i decided to write a song
for each day that you're gone
with so many days to fill
i've filled volumes with writings until
you call me
or text me
or yell out my name
i've been here before
i can't do it again
i've spun around on my head
in a bed of blue flames
until a connection
is finally made

see...
you're a mystery
and me
i have a history
of trusting the wrong one
each...
and every...
single...
time.

i can't just give it away
keep that in mind.

.13

i'll misfile awhile
but you i wanna defile
that's what makes me smile
and make those ugly faces
while i inhale those intimate places
and when i run out of things to do
i waste company time sending email to you

.11

i took a year off
to write a haiku.

i'm taking another
so i can write two.

.10 [s.o.n.]

she's all cheekbones and eyebrows
she's stuck in my brain
she's swedish as hell
she's ONLINE NOW!

.09

an ass-kicking virgin
rises and shines
and undulates sexily
i arrive
hardly able to breathe
she walks towards me and stops
she advances two more steps
and with a look
and a crooked finger
she lures me
deep within a place
that didn't exist
until i found it

.08 [playlist]

01.Al Green —Simply Beautiful
02.Me'shell Ndegéocello —May This Be Love
03.David Sylvian —Wanderlust
04.Norah Jones —I Can't Get Started
05.Betty Davis —You And I
06.Mazzy Star —I've Been Let Down
07.Sade —The Sweetest Gift
08.Marvin Gaye —Why Did I Choose You
09.Marvin Gaye —Soon I'll Be Loving You Again
10.David Bowie —Somebody Up There Likes Me
11.Paul Quinn —Will I Ever Be Inside Of You
12.Chet Baker —Everything Happens To Me
13.Working Week —I Thought I'd Never See You Again
14.Marvin Gaye —Anna's Song

.07

little skinny ballerinas
i used to crush them
when we'd fuck
pound their lithe frames mercilessly
turn their pelvis' to powder
i'd admire them
then retire 'em

upwards into the stratosphere thrown
forever eclipsing the fierce incandescence
cotton-candy dragonflies
quickly melting on descent
against my chest
hot and sticky
i'm tickled pink
by that perfect tiny ballerina