.32

there's a depth to my sorrow
one i'd like to forgive
it brings hollowness to joy
and allows me to be let down
again and again and again

it makes me needy
it makes me weak
it makes me pathetic
and un-developed
and dramatic
and forgettable

through all the ups
despite all the downs
it stays watchful
ready to insecurely defend it's self
and it's right to remain

who else has been
as loyal
as comforting
as threatening
as he

.31 [playlist]

01.Prefab Sprout - Dragons
02.Erykah Badu - Honey
03.Me'Shell Ndegéocello - Lovely Lovely
04.Amp Fiddler - Faith
05.Lupe Fiasco - Kick Push
06.Alicia Keys - Sure Looks Good to Me
07.Lou Reed - Perfect Day
08.Amy Winehouse - Tears Dry On Their Own
09.Flirtations - Nothing But A Heartache
10.Lee Morgan - Since I Fell for You
11.Style Council - (When You) Call Me [Demo Version]
12.Les Rita Mitsuoko - Terminal Beaute
13.Bill Evans Trio - Swedish Pastry
14.Chic - 26

15.Miles Davis - Dear Old Stockholm
16.Chet Baker - Everything Happens To Me
17.The Exies - My Goddess
18.Blur - Girls And Boys
19.Babyshambles - There She Goes

.30 [glanton]

the more i search —
the less i know —
about him.

in this web-wired universe
he's a simple brushstroke -
of a color that cannot be seen -
in a shape that cannot be defined -
with words that are written
to be unpronounceable -
and desires
that could never be fulfilled on earth

.29 [saudade]

thoughts of you
take me to a place
i almost
remember
being before
but such eons ago
that it feels too good
to release

.28

on wheels
i roll

on air
i expand

on scandal
i blush

on hyperbole
i swear

on love
i digress

on gravity
i'm bound