.53 [the moon]

I.

are you suffering from happiness extremes?
do the stars seem farther away than ever?
you never answer my questions
i'm just left with my imagination

are you fine and well and taking on the world?
are you cerebral and cautious and planning your next move?
all my questions remain unanswered
i may as well think about the moon

II.
moon lights up my nights
let's me know when to sleep
reminds me to think of you
makes me wake when it's done

i can't make it stop
and i want you to know
it's changed and estranged me
from those that i love

maybe someday
that light will extinguish
then hummingbird flutters
won't crowd round my door

i'll find some respect
and maybe a fortune
my life will change for the better
and the dawn will have come

.52

i think i need a woman
i know i do in fact
i'm up the wall
so you should call
or at least just call me back

i think i need a trainwreck
drop me to my knees
wake me up
in the middle of the night
make my darkness ultra-bright

i think i need to scream
i think i wanna scam
i think i gotta lean
i think therefore i am

.51

summer's impending
swooping towards May
memory overfill
the sand
the steps
the pier
and the memory
of you.

.50

i had
nothing
then i met you
now i have
every thing

i never
got out of bed
before you
now my spine is strong
and able

i couldn’t find
my way
around
now the direction
is obvious

i thought you
were accommodating
yet untamable
now i just
stay away

.49

women must dread
that moment
when they walk into
a bar
a club
a restaurant
anywhere in the world
and see
that man and
lock eyes with him
for just a second...


the panic
as her naiveté
catches up
and her secret
jeopardizes
everything...


imminently scrutinized
by those she trusted...
suddenly threatened
by those she deceived...


and i love the deceivers -
the unconventional urchins
who share their indigo sex appeal
their dark femininity -
all pleather and sateen
polyester
and mine

.48

I'm not up for being down.
I simply want to bond
with greatness.


As I look round the joint,
I see the scattered 2 or 3,
self-absorbed, self-involved, and detached.
Out of the darkness much genius permeates.


I can sit back and enjoy myself and
trust that life can be simultaneously fair
but so uncool.


Nearing rainbows - breaking rules
the consequences are few—if any
A nice cool rainfall would be perfect
Cleanse my head, my body and heart


I will live in the moment
and believe that everything
happens for a reason.

.47

your worn Vuitton bag
and faded black "Apple Bottoms"
you don when you dress up
when you’re bored or being boring

i don’t even know
why i would want you
normal and republican
aspiring to be like the wind


you say San Diego
is too conservative
obviously Stockholm
is too dull

but it’s where you belong
and I’ll dump you there
if you tell me you’re happy
and you’re where you wanna be